Phil’s memorial service was yesterday and it was really quite lovely. I somehow managed to hold it together even when Darie spoke about him. She talked about how much fun we all used to have at our Big Gay Tuesday get-togethers and how he managed to make it through many evenings with us and our B-movies without complaining. She talked about how all you needed to make your day brighter was a hug from Phil and as silly as it may sound, it is true. You could feel like poo and he really could make you feel better by giving you a big hug or making you a yummy coffee (his weapon of choice for me was the white chocolate mocha with sprinkles) or just telling you the lamest joke known to man. He wasn’t without his faults, but who is really? I choose to remember the good times and the good in him because he really was a kind and loving person.

All in all the past few weeks have just been sad, depressing and very stressful. On top of Phil’s death, Aidan and I are preparing to move in the next few weeks and I’ve been cleaning out closets and packing every week and I don’t think I’ll ever finish. I’ve done no real web-related work lately and I am so behind on helping a couple of people out with things that should have been done weeks ago. I know they understand the situation I’m in right now, but I still have guilt over the fact that it’s just sitting there staring at me and I can’t find the motivation to get it done. I’ve also been a bit stressed over the fact that I’ve been super broke for the past couple of months. I mean, I’ve gotten the bills paid, but the food/gas/etc. money has been spread very thin to a point that I’ve been losing sleep over it. Thankfully I’ll be able in a better financial situation in a few weeks, so I won’t have to stress over it much longer.

On a lighter note, I’m sure you noticed that I put up a new layout. This one features that hotness that is Taylor Kitsch (photos courtesy fnlgallery.com) and was made by the lovely and talented Nat.